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2007-09-17T01:29:00.000+08:00

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2007-08-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

i'd rather be alone at times, but sitting next to you for a meal really is the best thing on earth.
it'd kill me if i couldn't make you smile. it'd kill me right on the spot.
hey, i think i owe you joke. i'll tell ya tmrw. +)

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2007-07-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

i can't keep thinking about the future, cuz life ain't just about the future. well. i don't live in the future.
mom used to tell me about these distant folks of hers/ours back in hometown who had enjoyed a great deal in their youthful days but were suffering real bad in life and all.
like fun I listened to her nag.
but anyway, it's always on my mind somehow, probably because she told it over and over again.
life is merely each second when we're alive. how about stop thinking about all that future crap and start making sense of every second at hand?
well. how about that?
future will come to find me. just as the JET song goes: 'u just gotta move on.' +)
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well. Jay Chou sang "听妈妈的话".
so probably when mom tells me all about the very old-fogey, old-China stories, I shall keep them in mind anyway. +)
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i've been teaching painting at the very special arts centre lately.
all of a sudden i developed this love for the children. it makes me feel really good, to see little Gabriel and Ron drawing and all. Gabriel doesn't talk much, but when he turns and smiles, it makes me feel good. you have no idea if u don't see it. i saw desmond's sister too. i didn't talk to her but i hope she's happy. +)

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2007-06-21T13:34:00.000+08:00

"you think you almost forget about someone because they're not around you until they re-appear in your life in such a lucid form that just strikes you with all the memories from before.."

"i don't know if you've gone through this yet, but it's an excrutiating process, the process of "looking for yourself".. not easy and definitely long-lasting.."

"i realize we can have all the fancy dreams and goals and one day we have to come down to the ground and make a wise decision that ensure a carefree lifestyle that we so used to.."

-- Ivy

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2007-06-12T18:34:00.001+08:00

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2007-06-08T18:45:00.000+08:00

洪晃　＜无目的美好生活＞：
＂我向来力争做追求目的的人，但骨子里却是个追求过程的人，因为我致命的缺点就是贪玩．只要好玩我就想做，管你什么内部回报和屁股钱，不想那么多．所以在一个ＧＤＰ增长七八九个点的经济奇迹中造就了个人财富增长率进入负数的奇迹．＂

在我要求质量，而总是把结果放在第二位时，我亲爱的妈会说，ＧＤＰ虽然七八九个点，但是国家福利不好，你没资本，你没资本．咱耗不起，你还是学科学的好，学心理学疯了怎么办．我妈很猛，是个猛妈．用Yizhou的话说是：＂我靠！＂

＂遍地都是美警察＂这种现象在新加坡被发挥得淋漓尽致．我在包上栓个帽子，被人说 So WEIRD! 我把帽子带头上，So POSEUR! 最离谱的是，如果衣服好看，So GAY!!　而且要用最娘的声调说出来．
国外混血的多，＂混血小孩都好看＂　那是个误会．
这年代开放了，开着灯混的同学们可多了．还有环保意识强，热爱大自然的同学喜欢太阳底下混．

＂以公司为床＂≈以学校为床≈以图书馆为床（厕所都过时了）
现在的同学们都猛了，一句话就是＂我靠！＂

博客主要还是为了让人看，不然写日记本或者写notes就好了．
抽烟，喝酒，做爱，博客，用我们自己的话来说，其实都是为了实现一种＂今夜我最大＂的刺激感，或者是＂小霸王其乐无穷啊＂的感觉．既然是刺激感，那肯定容易上瘾，跟同学们打游戏也是差不多一个道理．我不容易对事物上瘾，有时候体现在我这个人没有钻研精神　:(

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

我啥也不懂，就跟着晃阿姨后面马后炮．．．瞎写．
今天好不容易看到喜欢的鞋，全苏州就剩那么一双，可惜穿进去有点挤就放弃了．
希望会有更多的惊喜．

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

总决赛开始了，哦也！！

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2007-05-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

ROSS and RACHEL
RACHEL and ROSS

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2007-05-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

i will work days and nights for you.
you don't have to pay me.
you just have to tell me who she is.
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friends.
sorry for not attending to you.
i'm deeply sorry and frustrated.
in search for your absolution,
i engraved your names under my forearm.
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between my pride and my promise
between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
the words i want to say to you
get lost before they come
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i love you all
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please be happy
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:)

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2007-05-12T14:59:00.002+08:00

Arizona surely know how to protect Steve Nash's nose.

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2007-05-12T14:59:00.001+08:00

Yetkae!!

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2007-05-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

I have no leukemia.

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2007-04-15T02:49:00.002+08:00

LEUKAEMIA
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I totally have no fear for death.
I fear incompleteness.
I fear the pains.

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2007-04-15T02:49:00.001+08:00

When his literature tutor asked everyone in class to introduce themselves, he remained silent. When the teacher got everyone to write down their names on a sheet, he put down a question mark. "?"

He was nothing but a question mark to people who knew him.

Cho murdered 32 people on Monday morning, more lives than a suicide bombing could usually claim in the Middle East, and more than twice the number of deaths from the Columbine killing. While we see the event as horrific atrocity, unspeakable, pure violence, the media and us have gotten so obsessed with the killing itself. The question had used to be, 'What's on his mind?', but as he died, we just went, 'Oh well, this guy's a madman.' And all those videos and pictures and text merely became syndrome of his schizophrenia.

Didn't we forget that he tried to provide an explanation to his acts in that manifesto? What did we know when we heard him mumble the words "brats" and "snobs" and say he would 'die like Jesus Christ and inspire generations of defenseless people'... Isn't it obvious why I think we are way too obsessed with the killing itself? Cho was compared to a few other equally(or probably not as much) disturbing campus shooters in all possible manners. But when I first watched that video clip of Cho's, two images immediately came to my mind - John Kramer/Jigsaw in Saw, the Death in Final Destination, both of whom executed those who'd failed to appreciate what they had in life. ("brats" & "snobs" based on Cho)

Many of my peers are always unhappy, querulous and greedy. They are so freaking used to taking what they already have for granted. They are, in some way, a group of jaded kids in the developed countries. I've always thought so, and I hate them too, but certainly not so much that I want to kill my classmates and then shoot in my own face (of the year). =.=

Thanks to some bumpy journey of life since 1988, I've suffered too much from frustrations and eventually settled down to feel satisfied with whatever I have at the moment. I've said this in one of the previous posts:

I'M BORED, AND I'M HAPPY. =)

I hope some of these people can complain less about having not enough but start to realise how damn lucky they are. At least stop using their parents' money to satisfy their unbounded needs. Oh oh just a thought, Bush should totally ban guns in all states so he could at least do one thing right before he 'zao' (meaning 'go off' in Singapore if not mistaken).

Cho Seung-hui wanted to send all of us a message.

He first sent that package to the wrong address, but NBC managed to receive it anyhow, and rather stupidly, they broadcast the video on TV, so despite the struggle, that message still went through.

However, few of us are getting the message right, because he chose the wrong method to do it.

That was just not the way.

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Some links:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6567143.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6564653.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6577095.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/in_pictures/6571075.stm

http://www.sawmovie.com/site.html

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2007-04-15T02:49:00.000+08:00

11/4 Wednesday VICTORIA 11-6 HWA CHONG

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2007-03-22T01:56:00.003+08:00

08 April 1994: Kurt Cobain killed himself today.
The 27-year-old rock star had a single gunshot wound to the head. A gun and suicide note were found nearby.
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Who needs the world when I've got you?
Switch off the sun and stars and the moon.

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2007-03-22T01:56:00.001+08:00

三月大敗北

痛,痛,痛

下墜!下墜!不斷地下墜!!!

勝利正在被製造
努力地被製造

下墜不過是為了再次起飛
飛過前方的山頭

四月的花是鬱金香
優雅冷靜努力

勝利正在被製造
我將會無比閃燿

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2007-03-22T01:56:00.000+08:00

i had not known that the word 'emo' contained such depressive meanings until i read an article on the news the other day.
BEWARE OF EMO KIDS
im fine with emo being a subculture.
some people are actually introverted but so emotional inside, and are going/have gone through a great deal of pains.
and i seemed to be one of such victims.
the angst all came to an end at some point so im more of a happy person these days.
im not understanding why many 15-yr-olds (even 12yrolds according to the newspaper) are pretending to be suicidal and self-harm.
invariably, once something becomes fashion, it must be blindly followed by tons of people.
teenagers mutilate themselves to be cool. emotions become fad. SAD and STUPID.
even real 'emo kids' should try to help themself out of it and move on to the positive half of their life axes. eventually i learned that emotions don't control us but our minds do.
we commemorate the pains by listening to music or doodling on a paper but that's only because the pains are gone.
so don't get stuck in this whole thing kids, especially when u can live comfortably in a developed and civilized society. u have no idea how lucky u are. appreciate it.

im bored, and im happy. =)
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House meeting was no good. Honestly i hate teaching cheers. Jason! HELP!! =D

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2007-03-07T20:02:00.000+08:00

今天我去剪头发, 结果给我剪的四十岁老男人调戏一个幼儿园的小朋友....

>: 你应该怎么叫她啊?
<: ......姐姐
>: 你要叫我什么啊?
<: ......
>: 你要叫我didi~
[姐姐]: 神经病...
>: 所以你要叫什么啊?
<: ......didi.
>: 哈哈叫错了吧. 你应该叫我 gor gor.
[姐姐]: 你都生两个孩子了还叫gor gor?!
>: 所以你叫我什么啊?
<: ......gor gor.
>: 哈哈又叫错了! 你不能叫我gor gor. 你应该叫我爸爸.
<: ...... (他是爸爸meh? 不是在医院把我生出来的才是爸爸?? )
>: 你叫我什么啊? 爸爸还是gor gor?
<: ...... ...... ...... (小声) 爸爸.
>: 你怎么能叫我爸爸? 我不是你爸爸我是gor gor 啦~
<: ......
>: 完了, 你太blur了. 我不是你爸爸. 爸爸只有一个. 跟妈妈睡觉的才是爸爸.
<: 哦...
>: 所以你叫我什么?
<: gor gor.
>: 对啦. 你去妈妈的bedroom看到那个男的就知道, 哦~那个才是爸爸.
<: ...... 哦.

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2007-02-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

如果你承受不了这样的拥挤感觉, 请跟我来, 请跟我去仰望天空.
球门后的草皮上, 我们张开四肢躺着, 呼吸, 呼吸, 呼吸生命的存在.

刚才强烈, 窒息的阳光变得柔和, 你手中捏着光线调节器, 让天空变得蔚蓝.

如果你承受不了, 学着作个婴儿也好.

今天的天空变成水泥的颜色, 空气中有很多瘟疫的味道.

很久了, 大家讨论病毒的来源. 不知道不知道不知道不知道.

其实我们只是在这样一天, 都恐惧着也染上一样的病菌.

我们听到铃声, 鸟叫, 电扇吹过, 抽泣, 肥胖校长的陈述. 我们就听着.

头太重了, 屋顶压得太底了, 我们抬不起头, 看不到什么.

结束了? 开始了? 只是一些改变的过程罢了?

我们捂住口鼻惶惶得逃走, 在这样一天, 我们生怕沾上死亡的边.

我想, 死亡只是一个过程. 早或晚, 一个生命由死亡画上休止符, 所以并不算不完整. 时间到了, 我们经历. 之后是另一段旅程.

可是种种的种种, 我还是忍不住悲伤, 忍不住带上耳机, 将自己隔绝.

天空是深深的灰.

If you can't take it anymore, please follow me.

We will lie down on the grass. We will stare at the sky.

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2007-02-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

Monkey see monkey do
I don't know why I
Rather be dead than cool
I don't know why I
Every line ends in rhyme
I don't know why I
Less is more love is blind
I don't know why I
Give an inch take a smile
I don't know why I
Fashion shits fashion style
I don't know why I
Blow it out keep it in
I don't know why I
Have to have poison skin
I don't know why I

Stay Away - Nirvana

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2007-02-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

Cobain is 40 today. I'm 19.
Nirvana was formed in 1986. Cobain was 19.
Cobain couldn't expect what was coming for him, neither could I.

Music never saved me from the fears.
Not even once.
Music only supports my back,
And makes sure that I don't fall.
It's okay when you sleep.
Just listen to the lyrics with no thoughts.
Just pretend that you don't exist.

My wife was the one that saved me.
I love you. I love you.
You always make me happy.
You broke into my cell and the light started shining through.
Love became so secure.
Peppy love between the spirits.

Did friends stop lasting? Did I cease exerting?
It seems that I no longer have the energy to spare.
All those people who pushed me into pains,
Who made feel me a little bit happier,
And those who hurt me badly again.
All the patrons of my life. They all just faded away.
And my friends right in front of me, you all will just evaporate.

She said I'm easily satisfied and I know why. =)

By the way I'm proud that my parents love me and I love them back.

New Year has come and I wish myself happy. I know I am.

=)

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2007-02-09T14:55:00.004+08:00

KURT COBAIN BIOGRAPHY

Kurt Donald Cobain was the leader of Nirvana, the multi-platinum grunge band that redefined the sound of the nineties.

Cobain was born on the 20th of February 1967 in Hoquaim, a small town 140 kilometres south-west of Seattle. His mother was a cocktail waitress and his father was an auto mechanic. Cobain soon moved to nearby Aberdeen, a depressed and dying logging town.

Cobain was for most his childhood a sickly bronchitic child. Matters were made worse when Cobain's parent's divorced when he was seven and by his own account Cobain said he never felt loved or secure again. He became increasingly difficult, anti-social and withdrawn after his parent's divorce. Cobain also said that his parent's traumatic split fueled a lot of the anguish in Nirvana's music.

After his parent's divorce Cobain found himself shuttled back and forth between various relatives and at one stage homeless living under a bridge.

When Cobain was eleven he heard and was captivated by the Britain's Sex Pistols and after their self-destruction Cobain and friend Krist Novoselic continued to listen to the wave of British bands including Joy Division the nihilistic post-punk band that some say Nirvana are directly descended from in form of mood, melody and lyrical quality.

Cobain's artistry and iconoclastic attitude didn't win many friends in high school and sometimes earned him beatings from "jocks" Cobain got even by spray painting "QUEER" on their pick-up trucks. By 1985 Aberdeen was dead and Cobain's next stop was Olympia. Cobain formed and reformed a series of bands before Nirvana came to be in 1986. Nirvana was an uneasy alliance between Cobain, bassist Krist Novoselic and eventually drummer and multi-instrumentalist Dave Grohl By 1988 Nirvana were doing shows and had demo tapes going around.

In 1989 Nirvana recorded their rough-edged first album Bleach for local Seattle independent label Sub-Pop In Britain Nirvana received a lot of recognition and in 1991 their contract was bought out by Geffen, they signed to the mega-label, the first non-mainstream band to do so.

Two and a half years after Nirvana's first C.D. Bleach was released they released Nevermind, a series of different, crunching, screaming songs that along with it's first single Smells Like Teen Spirit would propel Nirvana to mainstream stardom. Smells Like Teen Spirit became Nirvana's most highly acclaimed and instantly recognizable song. Not many people can decipher it's exact lyrics but Cobain used a seductive hookline to hook the listener. Nevermind went on to sell ten million copies and make a reported $550 million (US) leaving Nirvana overnight millionaires.

Cobain was shocked at the reception of his highly personal and passionate music repeatedly telling reporters that none of the band ever, ever expected anything like this.

It quickly became obvious that the obsessively sickly and sensitive 24yr old was not going to cope well with the rock'n roll lifestyle. "If there was a rock star 101 course, I'd really have like to take it," Cobain once observed. Cobain fell into heroin in the early 90's, he said he used it as a shield against the rigorous demands of touring and to stop the pain of stomach ulcers or an irritated bowel.

Through the touring and pressure Cobain continued to write his very personal acutely focused lyrics. Cobain was distressed to find out that what he wrote and how it was interpreted could quite often be miles apart. He was appalled when he found out that Polly a heavily ironic anti-rape song had been used as background music in a real gang-rape. He later appealed to fans on the Incesticide liner notes "If any of you don't like gays or women or blacks, please leave us the fuck alone." It was to no avail, Cobain found that as an overnight millionaire musician control was something he had very little of. Cobain also worried that his band had sold-out, that it was attracting the wrong kind of fans (i.e the type that used to beat him up.)

In February 1992 Cobain skipped off to Hawaii to marry the already pregnant Courtney Love. Later in the year Nirvana released Incesticide and in August Cobain had hospital treatment for heroin abuse. Shortly after Frances Bean Cobain was born.

In early 1993 In Utero was released into the top spot on the music charts. In Utero was widely acclaimed by the music press and it contains some of Cobain's most passionate work. In Utero was a lot more open than Nirvana's previous albums. Songs like All Apologies and Heart Shaped Box detailed aspects of Cobain's sometimes shaky marriage, other songs like Scentless Apprentice detailed the agonies and struggles of Cobain's experiences.

Nirvana embarked on a support tour and recorded and filmed an "unplugged" (acoustic) performance for MTV in November of 1993. Nirvana's choice to honour bands and people that had influenced them and Cobain's passionate and intense vocals especially on "Where Did You Sleep Last Night?"silenced many of their who had labeled Cobain talentless. Rumors circulated that the MTV Unplugged compilation would be Nirvana's last album and the band were splitting up.

Cobain was a gun fanatic and always had several in his possession or in various forms of confiscation. In the northern winter of 1993-94 Nirvana embarked on an extensive European tour. Twenty concerts into the tour Cobain developed throat problems and their schedule was interrupted while he recovered. While recovering Cobain flew to Rome to join his wife who was also preparing to tour with her own band. On March the 4th Cobain was rushed to hospital in a coma after an unsuccessful suicide bid in which he washed down about fifty prescription painkillers with champagne.

The suicide bid was officially called an accident and was not even made known to close friends and associates. Several days later he returned to Seattle. Cobain's wife, friends and managers convinced Cobain, who was still in deep distress to enter a detox program in L.A. According to a missing person's report filed by his mother Cobain fled after only a few days of the program.

Cobain was cited in the Seattle area with a shotgun. Days later on the 5th of April he barricaded himself into the granny flat behind his mansion, put a shotgun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. On Thursday April the 7th ~ two days after a medical examiner says Cobain shot himself and the day before his body was found police say Courtney Love herself was taken to hospital in L.A. for a drug overdose. Released on bail, Love checked herself into a rehab center but left soon after a friend called her the next day with news of Cobain's death. Cobain's body was found when an electrician visiting the house to install a security system went round the back of the house when no one answered the front door and peered through windows. He thought he saw a mannequin sprawled on the floor until he noticed a splotch of blood by Cobain's ear. When police broke down the door they found Cobain dead on the floor, a shotgun still pointed at his chin and on a nearby counter a suicide note written in red ink addressed to Love and the couples then 19 month old daughter Frances Bean. The suicide note ended with the words "I love you, I love you." Two days after Kurt Cobain's body was found about 5,000 people gathered in Seattle for a candlelight vigil. the distraught crowd filled the air with profane chants, burnt their flannel shirts and fought with police. They also listened to a tape made by Cobain's wife in which she read from his suicide note. Several distressed teenagers in the U.S. and Australia killed themselves. The mainstream media was lambasted for it's lack of respect and understanding of youth culture.

We'll Always Remember

Biography By Mick Ronson

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2007-02-09T14:55:00.003+08:00

i am the empty space in the dim light.

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2007-02-09T14:55:00.002+08:00

Mydriatic effect:

Prolonged, abnormal dilatation of the pupil of the eye caused by disease or a drug.

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2007-02-09T14:55:00.001+08:00

SUPERMASSIVE BLACK HOLE

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2007-02-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

负伤日·Injury Day

I could be the one lying in the hospital.
Yesterday's entry said, my death could be as soon as tomorrow.
Now we have seen how true that is.

You are okay Daniel Soh.

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2007-02-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

Perhaps I am exactly the reason why this world itself is existing.
Since I can't figure out how I got trapped in this body, I might simply be the cause of everything. All these oceans, continents, icebergs, and buildings, vehicles, people of different colours, and lives and deaths were established to cater for my certain needs. Although I'm not sure what those needs precisely are, I might find out after my own death which might be as soon as tomorrow.
Such hypotheses could explain how I ever became ME.

However, hypotheses is hypothesized. There are many billions of possibilities that all people are equalized individuals, then subjectivism must be explained elsewise.

No fear for death. Beyond it, there could be answers.

=)

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2007-02-04T14:28:00.000+08:00

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2007-02-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

最近老是在听Project Revolution 因为没有歌词只是音乐而已.
其实下了好些新的音乐,各种各样的,但是觉得听着很distracting,所以干脆听旧歌.
昨天JTS有点闷,大家好象不是一类人,所以就草草收场,我们几个自己去吃点夜宵,之前烧烤的东西实在不太够.
烧烤的间隙我去贩售机买汽水,竟然偶遇JIAXI.他说他住那附近,下楼来抽根烟,最近赌中超输了一把钱.我跟他说了说近况要了电话就拜拜了.也不知道要电话来干吗.我祝他赢钱.
吃夜宵时大家才聊起来,毕竟是自己人.AFZAL跟我说他讨厌这个那个人,我说很奇怪我以前和你一样,但现在却想不起那些人是谁.呵呵.人真健忘.
我,DESMOND和SIDNEY又讲起一些比较伦理的东西,DES就说我该学KI,我说我不想学因为我对有些问题只是好奇但并不渴望知道答案.到现在也只有韦婕老师明白我的一个问题:
why is there a me? OR how was i subjectified? OR why i can't see through your eys? 是个也许死了以后才能知道答案的问题.所以我想先等我死了在说吧.
吃完东西就已经很晚了,我也没多想就去DESMOND家住下了,一路上我们就聊,比如谁常去clubbing跳脏舞,谁抽烟抽得凶,谁做了爱后发公告,当然还有很多正常的话题好象家庭朋友之类的.
我们同意,若干年后,所有事情都会淡化,留下的是一些精神.
这身校服穿也不久了.
一个时期正在结束.

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2007-02-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

[其实在把好朋友托付给另外一个人保管的时候, 我们总是和自己过不去。]
[一月，阴冷的雨季过去，天气相当得热。我并不感到疲倦，毫无情绪地撇去一些汗水。]
[一月的最后一天我很开心。一个人在购物中心溜达着，耐心参观每一个店铺。]
[请问在瑞士天气会很冷么][瑞士有大大的雪山][长长的滑雪道]
[怎么说呢。]
[大家都把自己交给了另一个人。也有人把自己交给了我。]
[训练之前我们应该在球场的草坪上围起圈，一起读书。]
[老婆][我爱老婆][变成习惯不知是好还是坏][但是爱是坚定的]
[二月在拉丁文里有清净之意][头脑清爽，主题是努力再努力]
[我获得三好学生称号，以兹鼓励][和朋友一起吃马来饭然后狂笑]
[总是无意地瞥到对方，但是什么也不会发生]
[孙燕姿：感觉对了我要出发, 用我自己的步伐!]
[我要带老婆去马来亚东边的岛屿][谁也找不到]
[努力][努力][努力][微笑]

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2007-01-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

Awwww SHIT!!

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2007-01-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

I have come to the future.

After all, I've come to my future.
I see things that are so real but unreachable.
I barely grasped an interval and right in front of me is here and now.
Lapsed into thoughts and got no answer.
One day I might wake up just to discover myself in that old narrow apartment room.
Nothing has changed by then and I'll be 15 years and a few months old.
How many times do I wake up so I can eventually arrive at reality?
I wonder.

:::+:ETHER:+:::

2006-12-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

圣诞夜
南京城淹没在无边的雾里

能见度 5米

:::+:ETHER:+:::

2006-12-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

2006-12-24T22:15:00.000+08:00

平安夜
我一个人窝在不暖和的沙发上看英超
昨天晚上打完的比赛　重播
纽卡斯尔　对　托特纳姆
两队用几个诡异的进球在上半场打成３比１
纽卡领先

极度郁闷

但

正在渐渐地高兴起来

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Body Re-construction

2006-12-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

Latest link: 九吉 (click title)

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2006-12-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

i was sick.
i wore no enough to go out and came back with a cold.
i threw up at midnight in my room then mom came in to clean up and made me watch like a dumb ass. i couldn't do anything bcos i had no strength to do anything.
after that mom scolded me for wearing too little. she said she'd warned me a thousand times. i couldn't argue anything bcos i had no strength to argue.
it felt like bloody shit at first but got better before long surely bcos physically i was getting well, but also bcos the appetite came back and i was still stuck in bed so food was delivered to the room all the time. it was freezing outside the blanket so who'd be bothered to come out of it?!
while i was in bed i watched FRIENDS non-stop and finished the entire season in 36 hours. i watched asian games during breaks.

so lesson learned:
Listen to your mom and wear enough clothes during cold weather so u will save strength to argue with her.

>: so, what are we going to have for lunch?
<: i don't know.
>: u know i hate fast food!
<: kfc?
>: great!

<: oh i thought u hated fast food.
>: absolutely. especially the mcdonald's. uncle donald is a gay!
>: but kfc?
<: oh its a little bit slower in here.

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2006-12-01T08:10:00.000+08:00

i woke this early morning which was a short while ago and found something quirky; something glittered on my toe nail like glossy nail polish. after 1 minute i got a little more awake and realised it wasn't my nail glittering in the morning sunshine but the morning sunshine glittering off my nail.
i turned on the radio and it was power 98 and the DJ talked about a few Singapore high school kids (boys & girls) overdid a dirty dance. it was so dirty that it reminded the principal of his first sex experience when he was 8 (this one i added), so the principal felt quite humiliated and banned dancing in the school. so the DJ was like, ' what's the big deal? students want to dance just let them dance. this is the land of the free and who will want to see girls dance on one side boys dance on one side?' then i thought fck u, wait until ur 17-yr-old daughter rub her ass on ur colleague's 16-yr-old boy's p---- on a stage then you say it. i finished up the thought and switched to another programme talking about asian games.
so quirky thoughts popped to my head again: my parents were dancing to an old folk music and that already freaked me out but after that they went on to have some sex in an unfamiliar room. hours later i was made as a zygote and months later i was born so i was quite sure it must be the yr 1988. it felt so cold outside mama so it must be around 14th January. we didn't have much money at first but they still bought me toy soldiers power rangers and ugly transformers. mama took me to KFC once a month for the new toy and dad threw me on his motor bike we went to the ocean park on its openning day. i started feeling very thankful so i sent them each a msg just to wish them a happy day. now im feeling sad because i can't remember when i got taller than my parents.

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2006-11-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

he likes to eat good food, to watch sports and he like to write
so desmond wants to become a writer who writes about food and sports
probably for a newspaper or something
see
how easy things flow sometimes
u just don't have to think so much
until the cogwheels in your brain get stuck up in each other
until your thoughts are not heading anywhere
until you can't think anymore

i want to show mom
how easily things can go how she shouldn't worry
i happened to read an email that mom sent to a close friend of hers
she reminisced how fast time had past and how much her son had grown up
such mood between the lines
so powerful
a filmstrip stated playing in my head
mother's fingers typing, wrinkles, silver birches, the Gobi Desert, a green train, the 8-year-old myself in a blue sweater, an orange setting sun
all these were ended by an awkward emptiness under my belly

mother shouldn't worry at all
because the son understands love
a mother's love

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2006-11-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

went to watch Casino Royale with two friends at the grand cathay today. throughout the whole movie my antic buddy never stopped commenting on insufficient sex scenes and the actress's spectacular cleavage. the movie itself was only okay to me maybe because the storyline was rather loose the gamling part was rather hard to understand and the sex scenes were rather not enough. =)
so after that we went to eat swensens since my horny bastard friend never ate it before in his life. all of us ordered megaburgers (AGAIN!) and we asked for Topless 5 (five naked icecream balls, i mean scoops). HB aka horny bastard chose orange sherbet flavour which tasted exactly like the cheapo popsicle i always bought during primary school time.
HB said i was weird because i always bought unpopular 'art-house' dvds to watch. i said fuck, art-house movies are also normal movies that talk abt realities. he mentioned wong kar wai and i said fuck, i don't fuckin really understand 2046 so fuck it and wait until we are all 58 yrs old and see whether we'll understand. and we all hate feigned disingenuous chinese epic films because they are feigned and disingenuous. the directors had wrong intentions and they just contort the history.
after all these i came back alone and found myself feeling very alone so i started blogging and talking to myself...

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2006-11-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

The future of cold is infinity.
The future of heat equals the future of cold.
--- Proof

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2006-11-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

几年前的带子了.看得我手痒痒地.

2006-11-13T07:15:00.000+08:00

It's at a strange time in a strange day. I'm writing down whatever that comes into my strange head, and the darkness of the sky keeps fading so very quickly things around me already are visible. yet another day is openning up itself in front of my strange eyes, and my strange eyes closed. for one moment I felt very afraid that I might not be brave enough to receive this. Because it feels so STRANGE.
Now I feel content with the way that everything's just so peaceful in life, especially since 'oh pee' was finally over on last tuesdy. no particular thing is going on to distract me so i can just do my own things without too much doubt hanging. everybody's living healthy. nobody is ill or dying or pregnant or divorced. well actually britney spears just filed her divorce and now federline becomes fedEx but i don't care. i feel free. what elso would i ask for? kevin, now that u are free as well so u should feel good just like me. anyway being fedEx is not as bad as ppl think. ur former wife to me is such a fatEx!
Well, I think I'm short of sleeping right now n maybe that's why my words don't link or maybe they never linked at any time in any other post before. this only makes a little sense to myself and nobody else so don't bother about what i say. no need. all's well and I'm in love with life and I feel fine.

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2006-11-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

Uncontrollable Laughter

whatever makes u laugh.

A Good Post

2006-11-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

internet is not exactly fast in here, just like usual. ivy said she'd check her mailbox every day but for the last mail i sent her longer ago than yesterday, there's no reply yet. im often able to capture wee bits of happiness in my life, but it doesn't stop me from feeling bored. i kept reading and reading continuously until i couldn't fall asleep. so i watched x-men, the first episode. what a bad movie, i thought. how did this manage to become a success that everyone talks about? or maybe i am the one with a crappy taste.
i can't stand the people playing pc games in my room, with my laptop. they're my friends, or are they? well at least they sound like lots of noise to me. i put on my headset and listen to random songs. i like music, it soothes people effectively, especially when u have just gotten urself a new headset. i don't have a new one, no such luck, and totally broke at the moment. i don't understand why all the headsets that i want to have these days cost at least 250 dollars. i guess i'll just save a few headsets and buy a BMW with surround sound system.
life is really not bad. i have lots of time and im making good use of it reading lots of stuffs and sleeping lots of sleep. i'll do some chemistry questions in the tys one day when im extremely happy or extremely intoxicated by alcohol. now give me some time to feel nostalgic. listed are few of the things that i've lost in the last one year, luckily i took pictures of them. i miss them and i'm happy they were with me once when time was really hard. i smile and i move on.

water container. went missing in late 2005.

coke & sprite from s.korea. i drank them. not sure where the cans are.

oops.. by the way, i picked up this notebook on the road today. not sure what it is. seems that it can kill people or something, but im not interested in writing a single letter on it.

f--- blogspot...i thought i could add more pics. never mind. u know what i mean. it's gonna be a brighter day tomorrow so get yourself ready. =)

+:mr.han:+ i like MAN U.
+:xin'en:+ i like u man.

mr.han_...wow. =)))

song recommended today: stefanie sun <懂事><不同>

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开工!

2006-10-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

我在读着这本叫做The Time Traveller's Wife的小说,
听着绿洲乐队的Bittersweet Symphony.
突然地有了眩晕, 微醉的感觉,视野随着就开始模糊起来,然后,我消失了.

在脑中看见以前发生的事情,常常是不愉快的.
年龄越大烦恼的事果然是跟着增多.

其实,生活很充实不是吗? 我还有很多事情没有做.
现在,我要开工了! =)

---------------------------------------

我拿出一份Probability的作业,开始对大脑进行强度训练.

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2006-10-08T02:39:00.000+08:00

I'm becoming very insane on my sister's 20th birthday.

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2006-10-07T03:44:00.000+08:00

mobile phone sucks ain't it?
i don't know how i should correct all the mistakes caused in this misunderstood and ridiculous life. practically i didn't cause any single one of the mistakes. it's just the mobile phone.
the battery died when it shouldn't, and it couldn't send sms when i got the battery charged.
it gave me sleepy,lifeless voice when i expected a sweeter one, after which this guy palyed some not-so-funny pranks on my girlfriend, with his mobile phone.
i got fukn' angry not because these dear people are hurting me. its because i fukn' wondered why people use a mobile phone. it makes sweet become sour and romance become adultery just like the hongkong magazines. i don't know what im talking about. i'll let all these feelings go to hell when i go to bed.
none of these people hurt me on their intentions. each of them just happened to own a cellphone, the same way as i did, and cellphones happened to get everything mistaken.
i've been mistaken too much recently, in all possible ways. most of the time i couldn't even bother to be sad, like what i said, 'i won't pinch pennies and settle matters with so many of u people because u are not significant to me.' i got so demotivated to continue doing the house comm skit because im just not in the fukn' mood. im sorry house comm people. ure such a nice bunch of funny and nice people to be with but my life just terribly sucks at times. it comes random.
i didn't go to school to meet my pw friends today and kept them wating for hour. i feel damn damn sorry for them. really sorry sidney and chenye. especially chenye. she must be freaking mad by now.
but i was happy to meet 'jay chou' and some great people at the mid-autumn party. all the lameshit lantern riddles actually made me laugh.haha.

i really hope these people that i love so much will be happy tomorrow when they wake up.

honey i need a hug.

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2006-09-30T22:43:00.001+08:00

http//dars.jp

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2006-09-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

我心情又不好啦.真是没辙了,只能继续努力了. =)
我很爱我的老婆,我很爱我的老豆,我尤其地爱还年轻的妈.
我虽然有时不尊敬老师,但团结同学,并且保护环境,保护小动物.
我很久没有读书了,但是现在用起功来也许不算太迟.
我了解,为我想要得到的东西,我一定要付出不懈的努力,偶尔耍点小聪明.
但是,对于我这样并不是算聪明的人来说,小聪明有时耍不好,但努力是一定要的!
我也了解,要听妈妈的话,才能得到一个大大的飞机.
放假了,我要给每个家人买东西.因为我太想看到他们的笑容.
可为什么,现在眼泪莫名其妙地掉出来.我也不清楚.
我爱的每一个家人,朋友,对我来说都是一个唯一.
我希望大家要高高兴兴的.
老爸熬夜工作给别人带来幸福也一定会开心.
妈去上班也别太无聊了,晚上打打牌能够一笑也是好的.
老婆你今天要睡个好觉,这样明天就把发生的事情忘干净.

我觉得,我是个好小孩.

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2006-09-19T20:54:00.000+08:00

Now I feel worse than i did in the afternoon.
Sometimes you can never correct yourself with people unless you pinch pennies and calculate frantically like a GC with them. Fuck.
But I won't calculate with you people, because you are not significant to me.
I feel bad. Let me do some work.
Whoever that's reading this, I hope you have a nice day. =)

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Move On

2006-09-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

Time passes fast, but things are hardly making any sense around me. I almost can’t stand this habitual, routine life. It’s exactly like some scenes that I saw on the television, where all things around you started flowing in a haste while you are standing right in the middle. Everything fleets past and you can’t catch a single. I read about the mental disorder called chrono-displacement. People who have it always wake up in a random place, at a random time, some being naked. What a trouble it is to shuttle back and forth in history and confuse ourselves about whom we really are.
However, being fixed to one point can be equally horrific.
Time passes freaking fast. I mean this fact is really freaky and scary to me. While you hadn’t gotten the time to apply a force, acceleration already reached a maximum. You just woke up from bed in the last minute, now you’re doing your kinematics tutorial in the dark night. Meanwhile, all you feel is that life has gone back to the same as yesterday. No. I’m totally not talking about chrono-displacement. It feels like I’m stuck at the one point in time.
Sometimes there’s a cry from the hollow self, but after all, who’s gonna hear it? When they travel through time, who’s gonna see the transparent me? After all at the moment when we part, I will be forgotten.
I was there, and I’m still here, being completely ignored and left out by time.
-----------------------------------------------------------
I surely can’t think that every single thing ignores me and just passes by. There are people who I love, and fortunately enough they always love me back. =) I believe that’s good enough.
I know that eventually things will make a change. Perhaps before I step away from this point, I will try to remember what I have.

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2006-09-13T03:56:00.000+08:00

Notebooks crammed with Leonardo da Vinci's inventions, observations and theories are to go on display at London's Victoria and Albert Museum.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/4904240.stm

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In pictures: Da Vinci at the V&A [from BBC]

2006-09-13T03:50:00.000+08:00

The Victoria & Albert Museum in London is to display work by the art, science and engineering genius Leonardo da Vinci.
The museum promises some of da Vinci's "most complex and challenging designs" when the exhibition opens on Thursday.
The V&A says: "The intensity, variety and unpredictability of what happens on a single sheet are unparalleled."

The exhibition's four themes will include The Mind's Eye, exploring the relationship between the eye and the brain.
The gallery has gathered 60 drawings from British collections, which are being brought together for the first time.
Da Vinci's scientific achievements are ranked alongside his artistic masterpieces such as the Mona Lisa.
Huge models of some of da Vinci's designs will be on display - including his flying machine, tank and giant crossbow.
Some of the drawings will be brought to life with computer animations. The exhibition runs until 7 January 2007.

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2006-09-10T17:59:00.000+08:00

呃?
周杰伦?
超屌.

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2006-09-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

妈今天不开心.
我心里难过.
分裂.
老爸麻烦你早点回家.

哎哟哎哟噢哎哟哎哟噢噢

哎哟...

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2006-09-08T04:27:00.000+08:00

中国足球确实丑了一点.
但是,哎哎哎我们还是要听听听妈妈的话.
周杰伦又站出来说话了,作中国人要自豪,崇洋的毛病必须医治.
我们看了世界杯英超支持了曼联切尔呆呆呆西,不能忘了支持中国足球.
虽然踢得丑,还是要听听听妈妈的话,支持球队,给中国人挣脸.
在这里严厉批评部分囤积在碧山因为要嘛格没有去看现场球的同志,并热烈表扬大批从Oldham Hall风尘噗噗赶到球场的兄弟们,而且他们还带来某些美眉,迷倒了VJ某些立场并不坚定的男同志.
我兴冲冲地带了女人去看比赛,希望她可以对足球有更好的认识.结果场上球员和场下球迷齐心协力地发挥了历史最底水平,真是牛了大B了.
比赛结束前我面前一堆中新球迷对掐.中国球迷果然从小生长环境比较恶劣,抡起拳头就往下夯(hāng),充分发挥身高优势.新加坡两球迷边后退边竖中指,决不逞强.
虽然我觉得中国队昨天踢的太太太丑,但但但是作为我们还是会听听听妈妈的话,一如既往地支持,有我们广大群众的信任,球队才能踢出漂亮的比赛.对于新浪网上写中国队应该解散的记者,党中央已决定进行调查,调查清楚后拖出来当众捏死.

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哦哼哼哈兮哼哼哈兮哦哼哼哼哼哼哼哈兮

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2006-09-01T03:56:00.000+08:00

I watched KEEPING MUM dvd today.It's ingenious and sarcastically funny, just like a few other strange and 'drunk' movies which i favoured a lot. I couldn't say much about this show. Instead, I just thought it could be pretty cool to become a reverend and give speeches around the place, and become a goalkeeper at free times. Just some random thoughts, as Mr.Bean impressed me once again after such a long while, but this time for his speech.
I've been quite tired of hollywood and I enjoyed seeing some British sentiment this time, very neat and elegant. They didn't forget to leave one space for the "hot" and erotic yankees by the way. Haha what a show. =D
Love your daughter? Yes? Kill some people then. (Kill dogs also can)

Just now China beat USA in the World Women's Football Championship U-20 semi-final match. I watched the whole game. We won it through penalties at last but i only felt compassion for the American team. They could have thrashed us with three or four goals in the actual game if lucky. To be fair their girls played pretty much better (looked better,too) than us so i still think they deserved better to go for the final and get the title on Sunday. We were just too lucky. I don't know. I hope they're not too sad. I felt bad seeing them cry after the match. They just shouldn't lose.
Anyway since we're actually the one playing North Korea in the final later, I should wish the girls good luck. I'm quite sure we are better than them, since FIFA has banned nuclear weapons. Haha. (-.-")

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very cheena.

2006-08-30T03:23:00.000+08:00

"Unlike many, I think there's a need to appreciate." =)

☆☆☆☆☆
〓NATIONALISM〓

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The Hardest Part :::Coldplay:::

2006-08-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

and the hardest part
was letting go not taking part
was the hardest part
and the strangest thing
was waiting for that bell to ring
it was the strangest part
you really broke my heart

i could feel it go down
it is sweet i could taste in my mouth
silver lining the clouds
oh and i
i wish that i could work it out
oh and i
oh and i
i wonder what it's all about

everything i know is wrong
everything i do just comes undone
and everything is torn apart

oh and i
oh and i
i am going to work it out

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BACK ON THE BLOCK

2006-08-27T03:46:00.000+08:00

always we figure out what we can do,
to make the ones we love a little bit happier,
and after that, we DO IT.

亲人的关系是没法断绝的. =)

i was back on the court and played some nice basketball last night.
you know, sometimes you just have to trust yourself and focus on what you're doing.you know you can do it.
you know you can fly it.

WORLD BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIP 2006
1/8 FINAL: CHINA vs. GREECE
TIME: 27th AUGUST 1900 hrs
VENUE: TOKYO, Japan
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Beautiful Vase -- Held Tightly in My Hands

2006-07-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

"I'm already nineteen this year."
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Baby what's with the anxiety that lies deep in you all this time?
I doubt whether we are mature enough yet,and if maturity would have contained such eagerness.
Today you are looking good.But beneath that fabric I see the emptiness of a vase.
Baby what's with the anxiety?
What's with it?
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Eliminate the snit and keep the hopes.
Let's fill the half-full vase.
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You love this life doncha...

:::+:ETHER:+:::

what's ur patten?

2006-07-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

This is now coming down to the final duels.The host country have been struggling to continue their enthusiamsm ever since a sorrowful and unconvincing defeat.Yet they failed to do so.Looking rather like an Euro 2000 -- the Deutsch Version , Football World Cup has lost some of the charms it should have.

It's no longer about who have the better skills, or the better looks.
It's the the fates,destinies, apocalypticism which have occupied the centre stage.
It's all about luck.

People favoured Germany because they had never been this vigorous.They could beat all teams with seemingly slight effort,but they couldn't overpass the fate that always belonged to them.Italy wasn't any better,but they were destined to score right before the whole thing ended.It was all planned by someone.1970,1982,1994,2006.12 years to be a cycle,Italy's in the final once again.

1986,1998,2006.All three times, Brazil couldn't scramble over the French,and died in smotheration.At all times,Brazilians had their chests swollen with arrogance,but for all three times,the French persuaded them to go home.They left without a word,though woeful,because they know,this was planned by someone.

0 victory against Sweden in 38 years.We saw Wayne Rooney get expelled,and walk off from the pitch.England lost in a cruel round of PSO.Does that ring a bell within ourselves? We hope Wayne will earn some more respect as we all get older together in the next few years.We're still young,aren't we? Let's wait for the destiny to fall,as we all get older.

Apocalypticians are unrolling this fate map,and it's now up to us to be shocked or shaken or disillusioned et cetera.Of course you can be affected in a much better way.

Can it simply be explained by destiny?If we trick with our doomed destinies,will it follow and eventually come back at us one day,because that's our 'final destinations' anyway?
What if we're actually superb ones,but destiny tells us to humble.What if we have to face a penalty kick which determines life and death?

To this extent,there is such a pattern,which have decided the kind of life we deserve.
Seems like we have a chance to make the decision,but the one choice you make
IS ALREADY PLANNED,BY SOMEONE.
This is a game,and games have rules. =)
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Oranjé.Love.

2006-06-26T05:14:00.000+08:00

It was nasty.
I would refuse to talk about the match just now.
For one moment,I didn't believe what had just happened.
Mr.Han is SAD today.

Oranjé.Love.Never.Stops.

:::+:ETHER:+:::

2006-06-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

"And yet, i feel displaced... how does one define home? Where one's family is? Where someone experience 'life' as we know it? Independence? Memories? "
-- Miss Chloe Andrina Lim

I found these words from my GP tutor's website. I've been questioning myself over the same problem. I was born somewhere with big population, really big, like China, and how many of them do I actually know? This is a queer feeling... while my parents couldn't stop moving between some cities in the east of China, i refused to move on, paused here on this tropical island. The weather is kinda hot. Yes indeed, but I couldn't care, being anxious and desperate in search of somewhere called 'home'.
Now being used to the lifestyle here, being independent, with some memories in the head, can I finally call this place a 'home'? Not a clue. Still, I feel different, or displaced(as Ms Lim described), because of the nice accent in which I speak Chinese, the weird accent I use to speak English, the 'weird' taste on things I have, because I like tea, but not coffee, maybe largely because I can never pass the general paper.
There's a beautiful and strange place on earth, with huge population, damn huge, like China. That's where I was born, and where my family is, but where streets are full of ignorant, awkward bumpkins, and rowdy punks of my own age.
It just don't compare with the feeling of sitting in the McCafe opposite Parkway Parade and seeing millions of VJC people pass by outside the window. But can I call it my home? I don't know...

Keane
Out of everyone
Can anybody find their home
Lost in the sun
Can anybody find their home
...

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CHAMPS!

:::+:ETHER:+:::

2006-06-21T06:23:00.000+08:00

"Sorry Jessica Alba. I'm taking her home,not you."

A woman lives in your house.She's your wife then. ---Lebron James
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WHITE HOT HEAT

2006-06-20T02:44:00.000+08:00

it was a tough game but they took care of their home court.DWAYNE was great,being just like Michael Jordan,wandering around,seeking for just a little gap for him to take a shot,or dribble past the three defenders around him.they fouled him.21 foul shots on him.it was the free throws that saved Miami.
SHAQ said,he's the best now.
Railey didn't tell him to do those things,but it was D.Wade,so let's forget it.
Where there's a will, there's a WADE.

HEAT! HEAT! WHITE HOT HEAT!!

Antoine: I think you're ugly,so let's not see your face. =)

WHITE CHOCOLATE

Miami Heat 101 (OT) 100 Dallas Mavericks

三二

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五月二十一（2）

2006-05-21T15:44:00.000+08:00

下雨后空气很清爽，让我特别想睡觉。但是的出去做PW，又要讨论改造厕所的问题 -.-" 奶奶的。。。
要努力。素王道素王道！
←Gabriel. 遗憾，明年不可以和这帮孙子一起打球了。。其实今年我们的实力不止第三名的，莫名其妙地输给淡宾尼，啧啧。。RJ明明就是个国家队，每场都赢那么多也不知道会不会烦啊，他们回家听听哎母屁三钓钓大鱼也好了，用不着到处跑来跑去打这种没名气的联赛，浪费时间么。也让我们这些民工球队有个冠军争，大家一起抢第二真是猥亵。。
当然我们还是会好好练习明年去日翻淡宾尼！
要努力，素王道素王道！

:::+:ETHER:+:::

五月二十一日

2006-05-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

it's tough times that i'll have to go through. times when i feel completely out of place and agoraphobic. the strangeness is all over me,chiselling into every inch of skin of mine,and then i got really scared. many times i raised my head from the crossed arms to take a better look around,but i felt pretty void.
i kept listening to Chinese songs these days because i miss that sense of security,or tranquility,or whatever it should be described as... sorry i can't fit,and sorry i'm random.nobody managed to catch me.=)
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That might be my First PMS,after the long long wait of 18 years and 4 months...
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i will get rid of the fidget soon =)
but before that,i want to remain silent,so please leave me alone.
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看看...看你大爷! 我把你放倒!! 哈!
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"ORANGE ON THE ROAD TO GOLD!!!"

:::+:ETHER:+:::

"abnormal"

2006-05-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

On every day there's just a few more people who come up and tell me,"Hey!You don't look like a PRC you know..." Well,what can I do about it?I just smiled to so many of them.I felt totally lazy to explain and try to change the way they think.Some scholars here are weird..and they made people like me look somewhat abnormal,hehe.For many times,this made me think of all those friends I had in China.
I opened some of my old friends' blogs and got surprised to see many recent pictures of them,and know about their cheerful lives.
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XiaHan is previously from Nanjing Foreign Language School (NFLS) for Junior High 1-3 (Sec1-3),and that's why he's so "abnormal",because the whole school is "abnormal",weird,mad,spastic and psychotic.
He learned to speak some "abnormal" American-style English there,but 3 years ago, he travelled to a really small island,and abnormally learned to speak the Phua Chu Kang kind of English.Anyway,cut all all the crap,he still misses his old friends a lot......
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Michael,one of my 3 best friends (Ricky,Michael,Ray).
This man sat beside me when we had English classes in NFLS..still remember the times we ate dumplings together in the class under Ms.King's nose,and she was too dumb to find out.haha.Actually she was a nice teacher,although Michael couldn't agree with it.
He just went to Canada few days ago for university studies.I hope he can do well =)
(nice hairdo..heh)

Ray,another one of 3 best friends.Btw,we called ourselves F4 then (-.-")
He studied in Denmark for 1 or 2 yrs and thus became trilingual,but both his English and Danish are pathetically screwed up...He will speak Danish to you for the whole day while u don't understand a word,but he can never beat me - I fucking speak SINGLISH! haha!
He's studying Economics in Wuhan University this year.He doesn't look like he's 18 yrs old,but he won't admit it.
Ray's a very sweet guy,but a lame prankster at certain times.

Lulu.She had a bf in my class damn long ago,and i had known her bf since my primary 3 in some maths olympiad training(*pressuriszed East-Asian Kids).haha...Lulu is a kind-hearted,cool,profound and outspoken girl..her racing-bike that she rode to school was really nice(I rode my mother's bike to school when I was in Sec.1,which was totally embarassing).I don't know whether she still has it.She went to Canada with Michael together.Hehe.She lent me some porn dvds before if I'm not wrong.Haha. I was such a good boy.
She travelled to a small town which I have never heard of with the girl below for a few days.*Sorry.Such a cool thing cannot be done very easily by students in Singapore.Well,forget about it and let's go Orchard. =)

Ding Yunqian,that's her full name,and I can't remember how friends call her these days.She's my ex-classmate.I put her picture (*Real person looks much better )here cuz i was very surprised when i saw it.I probably had almost forgotten about this person then.We once read the same comic series and talked alot about it,and she actually sat somewhere near to me in the class,perpetually preaching me about her homosexual theories for the entire year...

and maybe this is how she has practised her theories...haha. (sorry Spencer,and all homophobics "stoning" in front of this picture right now =P)
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and...
More spastic pictures by
Ray & Hunter
(they think are a really trendy communist hip-hop band)

* My friend watched their Music Video and puked 8 times in the second day...traumatizing...

There are many more people who weren't mentioned above..but XiaHan loves them all. =)
Take care people.

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五月十三日

2006-05-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

Okay,as more than one people requested,i'm writing this entry in English. I'm not too good in English, so u gotta be prepared to bear with my grammatical errors,spelling errors,expression errors,parallax errors,random and systematic errors.I posted those entries in Chinese basically because I couldn't get the feel to express my emotions in a foreign language that i just started speaking no longer than 3 years ago..so that i wouldn't sound natural..it could have possibly ended up pretty lame.

urmm..a few things to announce:

(1) This is 'a bit' late to say.As the whole world already know,XIA HAN is the House Captain of Lynx this year. (-.-")...ahem..anyway I was very surprised by the results.Totally,I didn't expect to become captain or anything.I just wanted to get in and didn't think that far,and until now,I still have no idea what a captain is supposed to do.Also,really sad for Daniel and Felicia..They could've become really good house comms..and I even expected Daniel to become a captain...I read his blog just now..no idea whether he's gonna see this entry.He's such a great pal to work and play with..and Felicia too,we all know how much effort u put into the cheerleading stuffs..no one can be a better house leader than u.u just screwed up a speech,that's all *oOps*
anyway,I will remember the good times we had.the voters just don't know enough..no more than that 3 minutes of cheerleading (20 minutes for A-Q-U-I-L-A,hehe)
of course i must congratulate the other 3 house comm. members: Jason,Weishan,Zhao Hong =) Well done for y'all!! But still, 6 of us are forever house comm. nominees. As the CAPTAIN *clear throat*,I hereby urge all of you to 使出吃奶的力气 work together for Lynx, and be really cool~ haha.Hope we can have a pledge for invetiture: We,the house committee members of VJC,pledge to become...really cool,really funny,really,realy...urghh..really cheenah and nerdy =D
All the best guys! We have bright future =) Daniel and Weishan: Kick some balls in ur semi-finals --"
Oh yeah..lastly,how the hell can I forget about the whole 06S53 + Charles from S52,who kept shouting my name however whenever and wherever they wanted..Thank you guys =)

(2) My dear hostel friend,our revered CT rep,Xiaoyun's Da Niu,has opened his blog:

http://ditto88.blogspot.com

Haha..Go down and support!!no matter u know him or not..because he's such a nice friend.He's very cool too.He went fishing with another guy at 3 am on Friday.

(3) -I'm watching Band of Brothers for the second time.It's really cool~

-I bought DeathNote 9,10. Kira's father died,and...well that's all I can remember...

-I'm going to the Chinese Drama Night with the CL ppl. from the class..heard the show

was gonna be nice,lots of friends on stage..interesting.

-I watched a DVD called "Monster-in-Law" yesterday..quite a waste of time..bad show..

J.Lo's got a pretty smile.

- Listening to Jason Mraz all day long......

(4) Softball: [Guys] Victoria 5-1 HCI

[Girls] Victoria 9-5 RJC

touching games......

(5) Studying Ecomonics...It's getting my head feel like bloated..

Last but not least, WHO THE HELL IS EGG?! Come and report to me!!

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四月二十八日

2006-04-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

今天回去德明,见到婉馨,
又和全年一样开始讲起中文,觉得有点奇怪,但是好熟悉。
在德明里边转了好几圈,回了以前的教室,sho happy,ho ho。
hope we guys can meet up really soon. =)

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谢霆锋『香水』

风吹着脸由不得我拒绝
你是从不停顿的一个瞬间
世界再大
也只要求一点我
再好不过你一个指尖
你爱再浓烈
也是条抛物线
你再接近
只不过辜负我的感觉

我早已习惯你的名牌香水味
你的诺言
廉价的飘荡在我耳边
我早已习惯你的迷人香水味
只是情意随着慢慢散去渐渐消失不见

你的气味若能残留一点
我能多少记住甜蜜的感觉
你的气味若打著我的脸
至少还能猜测幸福有多远

:::+:ETHER:+:::

四月二十四日

2006-04-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

今天想起假期发生的一系列恐怖事情,想起爸妈，
脑子里闪现他们那些表情，妈妈停滞的脸，搞得我全身哆嗦。

加油加油。Go XIAHAN!!

明天要去找医生看眼睛，最近眼睛红得好象血要喷出来。

:::+:ETHER:+:::

四月十九日

2006-04-19T22:50:00.001+08:00

有几件经常重复的事情要讲，
第一件，最近压力很大，搞很多活动，House Comm.的东西搞得我有点郁。学习又跟不上。不过自我安慰的能力越来越强，不断地鼓舞自己，所以每天还是一脸挺开心，挺浠里糊涂的模样在学校若隐若现。同时也在努力地做好手边的每一件事情，其实是在尽力，只是需要时间让一切都走上正轨。
第二件，看了南外好朋友的SPACE之后，再次有些小小的感触，又开始念旧，一次比一次更想念国内的生活。同学们都快各奔自己的方向了，希望他们不怕困难，勇往直前，但要向我一样，不忘记时常回头看看以前的生活，关注一下老朋友，即使他们不再关心你他妈的是哪一个人。
我把想念的人的名字都放在MSN上，就好象每天都还看到，希望他们都好。
想念平静而脏兮兮的玄武湖。。。
第三件，今天买了飞机票，这个学期最后一天“磅”课（新加坡话：翘课的意思）回南京，很开心的可以回家，虽然回家以后会十分十分的无聊，但是心中还是万般期待。

最后，璐璐和勇壮MICHAEL五月二日远赴多伦多求学，希望他们可以好好读书，有阳光般灿烂的生活。

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发如血

2006-04-01T09:48:00.000+08:00

Basically,I'm random
If I hurt anyone of you,I feel awfully sorry.
If you happened to hurt me,would you please say a "sorry" to me,just to make me feel a little bit better,and just to give me some confidence in this topsy-turvydom I'm living now.
Anyway,it's good to feel stressed,or rather,it's good to be shoved.
Basically,I'm cracking on.
How far can I get?

:::+:ETHER:+:::

Became COWARD to You for a COURAGEOUS SMILE

2006-03-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

One of my 'sister's just got married last week.She told me something while we were chatting on the night before the wedding..something that may keep returning to my head for the rest of my life:
"It's too hard for us to give up our standpoint for the other side."
That's why we people never stop arguing isn't that?We all have different viewpoints over any trivial matters around.Sometimes they are polar ideas.However,at last we're still unable to tell which one is true.They always have their own different logic,all seemingly correct.Still,we can't tell who's the right one and we get very perplexed.
Constantly,we are unwilling to change our stubborn minds,even when at a certain point,we would stop there and start to doubt ourselves,and then lose ourselves.After this period,we'll stay confused,but carry on with what we believe,instinctly,and alomost blindly.In any case,we still respectively adhere to our own thoughts,trying to persist that we're correct.
Finally,seeing the inanition of this fight,I decided to discard my standpoint,make a peace,and start on a new page.This move was a trillion times harder than it might seem and all the courage had been summoned within myself just for this decision.I chose not to prove my point to anyone even it made me rather frustrated.I used up all my strength for this smile,and it was such a courageous peacemaking smile.I asked for this new peace for a new beginning,for your happiness again,but to you,all I've become is nothing but a coward who has cringed from his belief.
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FORCEFUL DRIVE BEING DEFINED

2006-03-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

★PROSPECT=MAKING MYSELF→A BETTER PLACE★
★To ALICE=NOBODY TAKES THIS WOMAN'S PLACE★
★GRATITUDE to all the HELPs & CONDONEMENTs→THANKSGIVING★
★MOTHER→ONE DAY SHE WILL UNDERSTAND→I'M THE ONE TO BE TRUSTED★
★I CHERISH the PEACEFULNESS when I STILL OWN IT→when people over the world are DESPERATELY SEEKING after it→when I myself OWN IT AT ZERO COST★
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+:未来:+:欣恩:+:感恩:+:母亲:+:珍爱平静,美丽的生命:+
:::+:ETHER:+:::

back at home

2006-02-18T11:06:00.000+08:00

One day,everyone of us will be grown up...just like we've never had a childhood...

Cross that street where we can smell the scent of snow,go back home,and eat the steaming food...

下雪了下雪了!

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Suddenly i heard the voice from the back of my head

2006-02-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

Writing diaries is never about recording the affairs...
To me,it is all about the heartquake at the moment when i finish the last word.
Every journal gives me a surprise in its end...and that's why i don't stop writing.
_________________________________________________________

the voice told me that i'm such a lucky person,and all I need is to cherish all that I have and keep putting in all the untiring efforts,to make the world a better place... _________________________________________________________

A.E.N._u have changed so much in the past 2 years...
xiahan_yeah...i look so much older now.haha...
A.E.N._no...your character i mean...

:::+:ETHER:+:::

2006-02-04T14:53:00.000+08:00

听到一些事后,所有灰色的回忆像飓风一样卷回脑袋里,顿时感觉十分自卑。
她说：stop thinking and go to sleep...things that are already done can never be undone....
仿佛我不懂这些道理，不过我仍然得谢谢她的提醒，因为她一直都是帮我走出困境的人，希望永远都是，永远都是。。。
偶尔地，会觉得自己跟别人比起来实在无知的愚蠢，直到现在我仍然能在脑海里听到他们的不屑的笑声。
我看着那些曾经嘲笑，揶揄我的人们，看着他们慢慢死去。。。
他们死得那么愉悦。。。
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现在每天都和一群相当天真，快乐的孩子在一起。
我时常忽略了我和他们之间的不同。而有时，那种距离变得尤其明显，使我沉默。。。
他们生长的地方，好单纯。。。
这时，我又想起那些一起长大的伙伴，想起他们这些年的变化，
想起我们之间如今的距离，希望他们在大学时能好好地过。
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我又想起秋雨，希望他可以干出一番事业，我也会和他一起努力。

:::+:ETHER:+:::

努力讀書素王道.YEAH~!

2006-02-01T20:31:00.000+08:00

紧急通知！

回城知青请注意！请按时携带毛主席语录出席在三寮沟的党性培训课程，交纳党费，否则将被批斗。另，五里河向阳生产大队丢失脸盆一个，发现的同志请速送回，以免耽误社会主义精神文明建设！毛主席万岁！

p.s. 本人暂时失去党性，将于短期内培训恢复党性。

Communists ran from Serangoon to Bishan Street! 为人民服务！！

——————————————努力讀書素王道.YEAH~!————————————
刚刚看到朋友的这句话。。大大大大地受鼓舞！
现在花十分钟写点东西。看到大家的space啊blog啊splog啊blace啊云云都更新得呼呼的
知道国内的朋友已经放假了可以整天写，不过我也要写一点振奋一下精神！！
可惜国内的那些人看不到我的blog...我也懒得去换成space啊splog啊blace啊blasplog啊云云。。。最近过得很很很很委靡。。。整天忙忙碌碌不知道在干么。。。过年也是在朋友家混过来。。。新学校新宿舍搞得我很很很很很很寂寞。。。感觉转眼就全靠自己老。十八岁老都，也么什么好抱怨。。。哎。。。
过年去观音庙拜拜。。希望这年可以顺利，不要想现在这样萎下去。。。多交些好的朋友，不过想想VJ这个学校怎么看希望都不太大，然后就希望老朋友都来关心关心我。总之希望大家都好好的就对老~都要听老师的话。。每个人都是。。。
那天有点想抽烟。。很久没有了啊。。嗷嗷~严重鄙视仍在抽烟的同志，以及所有丑化世界的人
另外，很想孩子他妈。。。然后想老弟。。。希望他很好，听声音还不错。。。

恩。。。。。。。。。对对对！努力读书是王道素王道！！---mug-mug"---

xinen looks like bodoh donald duck......BODOH!!

------------A change will do you good......

○●◎NEW BOY○●◎新男孩○●◎

2006-01-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※

是的我看见到处是阳光
快乐在城市上空飘扬
新世纪来得像梦一样让我暖洋洋

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你的老怀表还在转吗
你的旧皮鞋还能穿吗
这有一支未来牌香烟你不想尝尝吗

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明天一早我猜阳光会好
我要把自己打扫把破旧的都卖掉

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以后的路不会再有痛苦
我们的未来该回有多酷

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向前走你的路
猜猜未来会给你什么礼物

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:::+:ETHER:+:::

my story goes on...

2005-12-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

again..im writing something beccause right now i feel very hollow...after a long series of travelling,i finally settled down and began to write something...
i always got exited before a trip yet became very bored halfway.This time,there seems to be no more exitement,no boredom too...
left was lots of sensations on the way and exhaustion after things came to an end...
my job?i'm a fucked'up hoLiDayeR...
people will never know where i've been these 20 days...the lasting,and brief 20 days...
a journey to the place they will never arrive...=)

u know..i was shocked...the entire spine felt ice-cold...
but for sure i'm not gonna let it climb up to my face...

i never expected anybody to understand why i never take off this bangle from my wrist...i don explain no more...i believe it would come across real cool on the day when it's proved...
(very unfortunately,the bangle snapped few days ago,but it's still been carried with me.)

At dark nights in the hotels...i thought over and over...sometimes i thought aloud until i awakened myself from the crankery...
at last,i would smile and tell myself,'everything's gonna be okay and it's time for bed now,young man.'
it can't be easy to fall asleep...because it's always a strange bed...even at home...because it's a strange home...

i suppose the sunshine isn't the same everywhere...anyway,this is how sunshine feels like in Beijing--our beloved capiatal...
it's a dinified city..staunch and tough,but never grim...it's a lively place...everyone's life is well-embeded into the picture of this city...i like their accent by the way...

good morning.Beijing.

i cried...i don cry in front of people,
but parents knows the magic that
makes u cry..right before them...

Dad:"life is yours.i will be the supporter of your decision forever."

i:"i have thought through it,i believe i've made the best choice."

Dad:"Then go ahead with it."

the conversation between two men before i boarded the flight to Guangzhou...

Beijing Road--Guangzhou 13/12/05

they are the best friends i could ever have...they make me feel secure...make me feel cared...
never doubted that the soup i was drinking might have been poisoned...

the train has come to fetch me...

the journey never stops...my story will go on...

it is not a script plotted out...it's waiting to be realized...

vision...action...love...philosophy...

:::+:ETHER:+:::

iNtrOveRtz

2005-11-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

"Introverted children enjoy the internal world of thoughts, feelings and fantasies, and there's a physiological reason for this. Researchers using brain scans have found introverts have more brain activity in general, and specifically in the frontal lobes. When these areas are activated, introverts are energized by retrieving long-term memories, problem solving, introspection, complex thinking and planning. "
"Introverted children need time alone more than do extroverted children, says Laney, whose book, The Hidden Gifts of the Introverted Child, is due in January. 'Extroverts gain energy by being out and about,' but 'being with people takes energy from introverts, and they need to get away to restore that energy.'"
"Laney says introverted kids also behave differently. "
"They're not slow, inattentive or shy. Shyness is behavior that may diminish as children grow; introversion is a character trait that lasts. "

Preserve the silence......

2005-11-25T17:23:00.000+08:00

As I just sit back and look at this world from the corner...the touch I could feel is far beyond your imagination...
Preserve the silence...feel it...together with me...
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Picasso in Turkey(Click the title for link):

"Until now, any Turk who wanted to enjoy modern Western art had to do so abroad. "
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"The curators have gathered 135 exhibits. They are displayed chronologically, from some of Picasso's first paintings as a boy through to pieces he selected himself for his final exhibition, which opened a month after his death in 1973. "
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"I think the Turkish people have a real advantage that they can approach the work fresh, without any preconceived ideas "
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"Dozens of other rare works are on loan from the Picasso family collection including ceramics, sculptures and sketches. Most come from his grandson Bernard."
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"Turkey has long been a major lender of its own art and artefacts to the West, mainly from the era of the Ottoman Empire. This event aims to reverse the trend.
But it is also about introducing Turks to modern Western art. The museum aims to educate, as well as entertain."
:::+:ETHER:+:::

[10月18日]

2005-10-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

都说了我不是普通人了...
i can't go back on my words...
:::+:ETHER:+:::

DropThat!!~ [transfered from Fort Minor Unofficial Site (click here to see)]

2005-10-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

"It's called Fort Minor, instead of my name because there are a bunch of other people involved in the project. But I only wanted to work with family and friends; people that I feel are really close to me and we see eye-to-eye. Besides that, Fort has a militant meaning and Minor in music is a smaller, darker, sadder note, so the name is a reflection of the music."
Fort Minor is a solo project set up by Linkin Park EmCee Mike Shinoda. Accompanied by a group of close friends, he has produced and recorded a solo album. With over 20 songs already recorded, and himself and Jay-Z at the production helm, the album is set for a late summer release.
Mike started recording his solo album late into 2004, and first words came in December, when he mentioned the album out of context in interviews. Aswell as the confirmed artists already on the bill for the album, Mike is rumoured to have met with Snoop Dogg, Ice Cube, Musique and more.
Aswell as producing the CD, Mike will play every instrument on all the tracks that make it into the final cut (Minus the strings). An exclusive listening party of 5 of the impending tracks was held on April 13th 2005 with an audience of all the most credible online hip-hop press.
So far, the first 5 confirmed tracks are "Remember The Name," "Petrified," "Where'd You Go," "Right Now" (Featuring Black Thought) and "Believe Me".
Please use the links to the left to find out more about the artists, the project, the press' reactions and more.
:::+:ETHER:+:::

Happy Birthday To...

2005-10-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

someone special...
i've got something for you...loading...

My Words To A Dear Friend...

2005-10-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

i've had this feeling for too many times in the past years...for every time my family decided to from one place to another...and every time when certain things come to an end...i'm sensitive of that...things simply faded out of my head,although it still makes nostalgetic when they force to come back to my head...i took photos of all belongings of mine to make sure tt i would still see them in case,one day,i should lose them...hah,crooky but necessary...so i wouldn't feel so upset then cuz they are those who got through the same hard or easy times along with me.they're gone cuz it's their time...their spirit and significance will surely go beyond that...we have chosen different paths in our own lives...but as friends,i hope this is nothing but a start =)
:::+:ETHER:+:::

New Home @ Victoria

2005-10-06T19:11:00.000+08:00

Raffles(right):"Welcome!"

WiLL(left):"Oh thank you so much!but i want to be a Victorian."

:::+:ETHER:+:::

2005-09-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

-LOVE- 一直很喜欢的一个东西，站在plaza sin的fish&co.前面，路上被我拍下来，从车的二层。

the thinker...

李雪已经呼哧呼哧地开始劳动...饱了...
被意外发现的表情...
...
......
KiLL WiLL vol.01以前是运动型，现在是智能型

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见到老朋友很是开心，最后跟吕彦告别的时候觉得很凄凉，他上了巴士，我跟他使劲摇手，她好像没有看到，就那样走了。好像她过得不是很好，我能理解，不过也我也不愿意多说些什么。中国人在外面的确复杂，我很懒得去弄个明白，只是自己也很小心罢了。我们三个能够互相照顾是很难得的事情。吕彦你一定要努力，我们都是很坚强的人。很多人在我身边说，机会时常降临到懒惰而幸运的人头上，世界根本是不公平的，而努力也没有用。好像这是他们对生活最得意的总结。我承认世界很复杂很不公，但我仍会努力，我想不管看得到看不到，收获总是有的，比等待机会要来得聪明。不管有多挫败，我还是会继续努力下去的。我相信你是个心肠很好的人，不要辜负我的信任，哈，所以要尽力让自己过好一点。

有时间我就去你的教会看看吧，呵呵，不过我信菩萨，所以请不要介意。

Our Spirits Travel from Here to Eternity

2005-09-17T12:45:00.000+08:00

+:Birth:+

"I'm Sean.You'll be making a big mistake if you marry him."

"I don't want you to bother me again."

Sean collapsed in the symphony....

and that gave me a thrill...

"Have you ever made love to a girl?Are you ready for that?"

"......You'd be the first."

"I'm not your stupid son anymore."

"I've got a plan.We'll run away togerther.In 11 years,you'll turn 21,and then we'll get married."

"Sorry.I'm not Sean,because I love you."

The boy is in love with Anna,but Sean was in love with someone else.

Truth is accidentally unravelled by this 10-year-old,who has been indulged in his own thoughts.

Emotions run deeper than the supernatural,

They made it unnecessary

To bother how the boy,named Sean,should know everything.

Like what he said,"Do you know what deja vu is?."

Some love is so flimsy

That a man could start cheating his wife not long after the wedding

But some love lasts for so long until ever...

"Maybe I'll see you in another lifetime."

--Sean

+:Big Fish:+:Ava's Man:+

I love both stories.

Edward Bloom and Charlie Bundrum

Both do things which they think to be right

Both upholding their sound/not-very-sound values in life

Thus

They both made a big difference in their respective lives

They had probably long been packed up by history

Forgotten by offsprings--Son for Edward,Grandson for Charlie

But they never are

They are the symbols of a time

At the same time,They lived out of it

They will exist and preserve the vanishing culture, for a longer time

When they lived,

They did whatever they could to achive what they believed

Fealessly,and even shamelessly

Eventually when they passed, they didn't leave much, but stories

They stories are told by me to you,and then you to someone else,and then to another

Second-hand,third-hand,and fourth-hand,fifth-hand,never-ending

It's not a matter how they're told

As long as they are told and remembered

Matters would worth so little

When you discover the inner spirit in yourself

Because spirit lives until ETERNITY

:::+:ETHER:+:::

：：：从此深深体会幸福的可贵，生命的顽强：：：

2005-09-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

清晰地记得在纽约的时候，曾经从世贸的顶上向下俯看。有风，很大的风，吹得脸生痛。也曾经用自己的第一部相机拍下了下面的两座铁索桥。好像是同往皇后区的两座桥，也许记错了吧。看到姜瑶的日志，觉得她抓到了我当时的一些感受，我想应该也不只是我的感受而已。

也同样清晰地记得四年前的那个早上买报纸的情形，很难相信报纸上的所说的故事，双手开始颤抖。很多朋友当时心存幸灾乐祸的心理，我虽然可以理解他们反美的情绪，却也同时觉到他们的无知与冷漠。冷漠的人应该比劫机的罪犯更加可恶吧。

本来希望用英文写一些感想，但想到是这样一个话题，只怕是不能更好的表情达意，所以还是决定用母语来描述。虽然写的时候已经心平气和，但想一想，当初的震撼和恐惧并不算陌生。

很多人痛心哭泣，很多人显得愤怒，很多人从此心存大患，蜷缩在自己的世界里，
我很欣慰地看到更多人鲜活跳动的心脏，看到世界上所有的爱在此刻凝聚成不可战胜的力量。
2001年9月22日的日记中，我写到：

我要坚强的活下去。

从此深深体会幸福的可贵，生命的顽强...

iys:
your posting is very inspiring.must thank you for sharing with me,and hope you will also like mine.your words captured a lot of my feelings at that time.at first i only wanted to say something in your xanga but that comment link somehow wasn't working.so i decided to put up a posting of my own so that everybody including you can come and share.i still don't think i have expressed the thoughts that well.simply,i was very much stunned by the attack.i went to NY in August and that was only 1month before the attack.totally terrified i was at that moment,and there's always something inside there which really can't be expressed through my words,even though i put it in Chinese.maybe im fairly deprived in language.anyway everybody reading this entry can try to empathize a little bit and understand the feelings of mine,and maybe of a lot more people in the world.=)

:::+:ETHER:+:::

这一天

2005-09-08T06:29:00.000+08:00

祝朋友生日快乐

九月八日凌晨

这一天

世界再次...变成黯淡的；我所熟悉的黑色

而我...

亦将再次地沉默

真的不知该说些什么...所以便自然地回到原始的状态中去...
另一次冬眠不再遥远......

:::+:ETHER:+:::

J.Will's All Grown Up

2005-09-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

Have u ever seen him dressed like this? he's all grown up...he's gonna be very different...i expected this about 2years ago...i knew Shaquille would love to play with somebody like J'...definitely rather than Bryant...now it just happened...and the whole thing is really amazing to me...Jason is turning 30 in a few years...it's time for him to make things big...like how Jason Kidd did a couple of years ago...he had even known Shaq before he got drafted by Kings...so this is kinda fated...they're supposed to play together...n'this combination will be absolutely explosive...i can't wait to see.

:::+:ETHER:+:::

Ahh...my dear 4c...

2005-09-04T05:22:00.000+08:00

Although the decoration at the back is not so fabulous..i still have to lOve u guys....
but why is everyone this blur? i'm not saying 'bout the pixel...we did look really bur....

:::+:ETHER:+:::

Rain Man

2005-09-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

Charlie finally unravelled that fraternity that had been hidden within...

"Never Hurt Charlie Babbit...Never Hurt Charlie Babbit..."

Connecting...

"Raymond,do you wanna live with your brother Charlie?"
"Yeah."

:::+:ETHER:+:::

莱利送琼斯直言交易目的：换白巧克力只因缅怀便士

2005-09-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

新浪体育讯　北京时间8月3日消息，NBA史上最大规模交易即将诞生，这一交易涉及了5队13名球员，主角是凯尔特人的沃克，他将前往热队。热队还将从灰熊得到贾森-威廉姆斯和小前锋詹姆斯-波希，灰熊队将得到热队的埃迪-琼斯。黄蜂和爵士也参与了交易。

告别灰熊的“白巧克力”贾森-威廉姆斯上赛季平均每场得到10.1分和5.6个篮板，莱利认为他的能力可以和纳什基德媲美：“他是一名极有威胁的投手，之所以把他换来，是因为自从哈达威走后，我们阵中就再没有出现过这样的球员。”

:::+:ETHER:+:::

endure...

2005-08-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

[6/8]
Providence is one feature of our maturity..
To endure,we think big and we think far..
A person endures because he/she believes that there must be something really great going to happen..
let's grow up..let's endure together..

[4/8]
女人很阴险

[3/8]
a book called :
Sometimes doing good is about common courtesy and thoughtfulness.

"Live Aloha"..create smiles

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.Be honest and frank anyway.
horoscopes..urm..i think people are always trying hard to search for something so as to match the predictions about horoscopes..
i believe that's the ruse of it..

[2/8]
She's very down..So am i..i'm sorry that i was tetchy
u shouldn't be confusing me..well..never mind..i don' mind actually..
i'll just leave it to urself..i think that'll be better for u..as long as it's better for u..

learning to endure...i'm a man..endure all the jealousy and pains..
cuz i'm a man..i'm the chosen one..so i must be reliable..

[1/8]
time to rest...
孙燕姿《相信》梁咏琪《爱的代价》朴树《NewBoy》 Simple Plan《I'd Do Anything》
我曾经看见困难就变得胆小，不够勇敢

[31/7]
am i fated or doomed?

i'm smarter than ever..

Xin'en is the only one..baby ure the only one...

Don't ever try to find a replica..That hurts both sides.

song playing: Sarah Mclachlan

:::+:ETHER:+:::

总结

2005-06-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

[五月二十九日]
打了一夜电话,道了别.刷完牙,就收拾收拾上飞机了.路上看了两个电影.南京机场怪冷清的.进了市区就更不舒服,南京现在怎么乱糟糟土了吧唧的...老爸说我刚回来还不习惯,我却觉得南京的确变矬了..毕竟不是太有钱的地方,比不上大城市...过了这么多年了,楼下的大妈还认得我,照常拿雪糕给我吃..她老了...晚上吃饭见到不少人..王子凡又长高了...
晚上去苏州..车还没开出珠江路我就睡着了..昨天晚上一夜没碰枕头..现在发作了..醒来已经是苏州的宽宽的街道了..头顶有立交..不习惯看苏E的车牌...
[五月三十日]
妈妈责令我去理发.本来我让他把中间留着.心想不知妈妈看到又会发什么神经,就干脆削了..
之后去买碟,老妈在我回家的时候总是很大方地给钱...或者说剪掉头发以后..嘿嘿
观前街听说很多次了,也来过一回..再来一次,仍然没有丝毫的好印象..只有饭店和卖衣服的..
不过很不好看..街上有些小朋友们十分严重地哈日..
逛到十全街..不错的地方,虽然路窄,但是有我喜欢的梧桐树..走两步就是酒吧,有些鬼在闲聊..
也有一些很雅致的小店,卖家具装饰品..不便宜..不过只要看看也就够了..
晚上跟妈妈去山塘,是个古街..漂亮..晚上特别漂亮.水里的船上挂有红灯笼..里面的人下棋,听戏...
白天每家店开张做生意的时候是看不到的..跟周庄有相同的味道,更朴素一些..山塘古街..
[五月三十一日]
拙政园--名代的人相当奢侈....
园子太大..分不清方向,相比下我喜欢天平山的园林...
西山--太湖正中的一个岛..里面有个古村落..年轻人都进了城里,只留老人在家过清贫的日子..最远也就去镇上买点菜..老房子保存得相当完好..连家具都是原始的..十六世纪的人哪里会知道,自己随便敲打出来的木箱子今天会值这么多钱..当官的又哪知道自己在今天的后代是种地的农民..很有意思..
[六月一日]
昨天晚上喝多了,头晕晕的...儿童节...我还是得过的..快乐去寒山寺烧香..复习枫桥夜泊..终于了解这首诗是张继涂的,不是苏轼..霍霍..好..我要开始读化学了..哈..zzZ

:::+:ETHER:+:::

cHiLd'oF+:ETHER:+

Body Re-construction

A Good Post

开工!

Move On

In pictures: Da Vinci at the V&A [from BBC]

very cheena.

The Hardest Part :::Coldplay:::

BACK ON THE BLOCK

Beautiful Vase -- Held Tightly in My Hands

what's ur patten?

Oranjé.Love.

WHITE HOT HEAT

五月二十一 （2）

五月二十一日

"abnormal"

五月十三日

四月二十八日

四月二十四日

四月十九日

发如血

Became COWARD to You for a COURAGEOUS SMILE

FORCEFUL DRIVE BEING DEFINED

back at home

Suddenly i heard the voice from the back of my head

努力讀書素王道.YEAH~!

○●◎NEW BOY○●◎新男孩○●◎

my story goes on...

iNtrOveRtz

Preserve the silence......

[10月18日]

DropThat!!~ [transfered from Fort Minor Unofficial Site (click here to see)]

Happy Birthday To...

My Words To A Dear Friend...

New Home @ Victoria

Our Spirits Travel from Here to Eternity

：：：从此深深体会幸福的可贵，生命的顽强：：：

这一天

J.Will's All Grown Up

Ahh...my dear 4c...

Rain Man

莱利送琼斯直言交易目的：换白巧克力只因缅怀便士

endure...

总结

五月二十一（2）